Returning here again, I have a sense of trepidation. I have obviously been looking forward to the day of reunion, but I am afraid to see you when I set foot on this land where you are. I fear that time and distance have erased me from your heart, making us strangers or enemies.
In all these days since I left you, you never disappeared from my heart, even when I hated you the most, I couldn’t manage to forget you. I thought that time would let me slowly forget, forget my hatred for you, forget my love for you, but five years have passed, and there is no way I can deceive myself that I have forgotten you. So, I came back, with an expectation to come back to you.
Five years is very long, so long that I no longer recognize this place I used to be familiar with, like a newcomer to the foreign land like looking around, but have the memory of this place from the past. I stubbornly want to find the exact same scenery as five years ago, but never found, everything has changed. I don’t want to use things have changed to describe, because I don’t want you to change, I hope you are still the same person I loved five years ago.
Five years is also very short, short enough that I can still clearly recall the bits and pieces we have experienced together, those laughter and tears is to support me through these years without you around the spiritual food. What about you? Do you remember our past? No, the past has not become the past between us, because I’m back to renew with you the love we paused in the middle five years ago.
When the day comes for us to reunite, I hope that the love between us still exists, that we can forgive each other for the mistakes we have made, and that we can turn a new page in our lives together for the rest of our lives.